I think Denzel is a great actor…
I have been out of the hospital for slightly over a week. I was in a psych unit due to suicide idealization. While I was in the hospital my medication was completely changed. They work great! Since my release I have been feeling great. My friends who do not understand what I have been through but try to give me advice… unwelcome advice. I know that she means well. The way the person talks it sounds as if she is stressed for me. My decision is to keep the peace and not stress.
Due to something that I told the psychiatrist I was terminated from my job. Instead of being supportive she decided to give me advice. She mentioned that my hospital bill would be expensive. Continuing she said that for the future I should find other ways to reach out to people so that it’s not so expensive. Towards the end she asked me if I would do anything different knowing that I would be fired. I told her no. I would not do ANYTHING different. I am at peace with my life and am not thinking ahead to bills or things that I have no control over. I have decided to take things one day at a time. If I live in the past or the future then I will miss the present.
In addition to that each day I fight to not have irrational thoughts. That is something I have a hard time with. When I do have those kind of thoughts it’s because I’m either living in the past or future. An example of an irrational thought would be, me replaying a conversation I had with a friend over and over and trying to read into it. My friend J told me that she could understand why I would be tempted to do that. To me that statement lead me to think that she felt that I was capable to harm someone else instead of me having a thought to harm someone. I had to keep telling myself that it was in the past. Don’t look into it so much. Last but not least focus on today. That is something I have to tell myself often. But so far it has been helpful.
My name is Autumn Burgess. I am 35 years old and I suffer from depression, which runs in my family.
In April of 2009 I moved to Salt Lake City, Utah from Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania which is where I was born and raised. Technically I do not have any sisters but I am the youngest of three girls. They are nine and ten years older than me. We do not share the same biological father. My half sister who is ten years older than me sees a therapist and takes medication for depression. When I was 16 my mother attempted to kill herself by overdosing. She passed away at the age of 54 from lung cancer. Looking back I now know that when she tried to kill herself was not the only time that my mom was depressed. Lemuel Lawson, my biological father was never around. Zachariah Taylor Walker III is the man that my mom chose the marry. He was abusive as well as an alcoholic. My mother’s twin suffered from depression as well as her son who is three years older than me.
It was at the age of 17 that my depression became noticeable. In 18 years I have had at least seven hospitalizations, at least eight suicide attempts, and too many to count suicide idealization with one homicidal idealization. Most of my adult life I have felt numb on the inside. I was not happy but I wasn’t sad either. After my last hospital stay I have been on new medication that seems to be working great.
I am writing this because there a millions of people who suffer from depression and I want those people to know they are not alone. Also, I would like people to know that there are placed to get help. Last but not least I want people to know the warning signs of someone with depression and also what depression is.
Welcome to my life with depression.
The historical drama “The King’s Speech” won the Academy Award in 2011 for best picture. Tom Hooper directs Colin Firth as King George VI who suffers from a debilitating speech impediment. With the help from his wife Queen Elizabeth, (Helena Bonham Carter), they enlist the help of an unorthodox speech therapist Lionel Louge (Geoffery Rush). King George VI and Lionel form a friendship as he helps the King overcome his stammering.
The Oscar winning picture is bookended with King George VI giving a speech. They both have a dramatic affect. In the opening scene we can see that he does not have much confidence in himself. Throughout the entire speech the king stammers. Those in attendance as well as his wife seem to have sympathy for him. When the king starts to give his address in the closing scene there is only one person near him, Lionel, the only person other than his family that he feels as if he can be himself around. As King George VI continues his speech he becomes more confident to the point that by the middle of his address he is not stammering or pausing as much.
One of the few dramatic scenes that evoke emotion is when King George V dies. King Edward VIII breaks down and cries on his mother’s shoulder then storms out the room. We feel the pain of King Edward VIII and most of us can relate to his pain of losing a father and feeling the weight of responsibility on our shoulders. Meanwhile King George VI shows up at Lionel’s office after his father’s death. This scene evokes emotions because it is at this time the king starts to truly open up. They have a great bonding experience. For the first time the king drinks with Lionel. King George VI also lets lose and answers Lionel’s questions so that he can paint a model airplane. In another sequence Lionel and the king are in Westminster Abbey preparing the King George VI to be crowned. There is a lot of emotions mixed in this one scene. The audience finds out that Lionel is not an accredited speech therapist. King George VI is furious that Lionel does not have any credentials and feels that he was lied to. As King George VI yells at Lionel we can feel the tension as well as sorrow. At this point we have come to love Lionel, so when he is yelled at we know that he is still a good guy who has done a lot to help the king.
Throughout the film there are many entertaining moments, like those mentioned above, but the majority of the movie is quite dull. In one scene Queen Elizabeth is meeting Lionel for the first time. In this sequence the only thing that goes on is talking. This is the point where the movie starts to go very slow and get boring. For a historical drama there is not much drama.